Chapter 182

Chapter 182

“You already know that.”

“You can help Neah, right?”

“Ah, they have spoken to you.” She turns away and fiddles with the blankets on the bed, refolding them as she tries to think of something to say. “It’s not a quick fix.” Mallory looks over to Raven. “I’m sure Damien has told you it’s a constant battle.”

Raven nods and automatically, I feel that she has been keeping secrets from me.

“You have to stop that.” Mallory snaps, making me jump.

“What are you talking about?” I frown back at her.

“That look. You have to stop looking for the bad in every situation.”

“I didn’t say anything.” I protest.

“You didn’t need to. Your face did.”

Raven looks between me and Mallory. “I’m not even going to ask what I just missed.”

“I know everything is ten times harder for you.” Mallory speaks softly, “Your upbringing has made it harder. The shit you went through means you automatically see the bad. And I don’t blame you for that.”

“You mean like you nearly killing me?”

She doesn’t physically react to my question. Instead holding her spot. “Exactly.”

‘Just kill her and get it over with.’ Nyx growls.

‘Shut up, I can’t be dealing with you right now!’ I snap back at my Lycan.

“I want to help you, Neah, if you will let me. At the end of the day, you are my Alpha.” Her brow crinkles up into a frown. “But if you want to kill me, then kill me.”

“Don’t!” Raven grabs my arm, even though I hadn’t moved.

“Let go Raven, this has to be her choice.”

“It’s a test?” I murmur. “Because if I kill you, there is a good chance I will change?”

Neither of them respond.

‘Kill her, we will be fine.’ Nyx muses. Was it her? Was she the reason I was becoming a monster?

I close my eyes. “I want your help. I want to see my pups grow up. I want to be with Dane. I want to live.”

“Good, that’s a start.”

It was like Raven said, I didn’t have to trust her, I just had to let her help me, for now.

Mallory gestures for me to sit down but I stay on my feet and she cocks an eyebrow at me. “Now normally I would insist on intense exercise…”

“Intense exercise?” Raven cuts her off.

“Why do you think Damien is built the way he is?” She laughs, “but Neah, as you are pregnant and supposed to be resting, this is going to be a little more difficult.”

“And the fact Salem is out there somewhere.” Raven adds.

“That too. Hmmm” Mallory turns to Raven, “Is she clear to have sex?”

“I am here!” I snap, frustrated.

“It doesn’t stop them.” Raven shrugs her shoulders. “Wait, did you tell Damien the same thing? Who was he sleeping with?”

Mallory doesn’t answer her and speaks to me. “Part of the key is keeping your mind busy and keeping your body active.”

Nyx rolls her eyes but at least she keeps her mouth shut.

“That’s your advice?” I splutter, “Sex and keeping busy?”

“That’s just the beginning. It’s a long process, Neah. It’s not a quick fix overnight and you need to be prepared for that.”

“How long did it take Damien?” Raven asks.

“Has he told you?”

“No.”

“There’s your answer.”

“I don’t….I don’t follow.” I mutter.

“It will always be a battle. Some will win, some will lose.” Mallory’s brown eyes lock on mine.

“You have helped others, other than Damien?” Raven asks.

She nods.

“Other’s, so there are more?” I ask.

“Damien is the only one who has one hundred percent fought the Rogue life and continues to fight it.”

“You tried to help some of the others but it failed.” Raven clarifies.

My chances of me fighting this were not in my favor.