Chapter 181
Chapter 181
Neah “How can I not remember, Raven? That makes absolutely no sense.” “Maybe you got confused. Maybe you lost track of time.”
“You don’t believe that. Damien must have said something to you.” I mutter. I was out of the chair and pacing. Somehow, pacing has become the thing that helps me think
“What does Nyx say?” Raven asks quietly. Her eyes follow me as I move around the room.
“She thinks you are all lying to me. But you can’t all be, can you? It’s not like Moonshine where they kept secrets from me. You would tell me the truth, wouldn’t you?”
Raven nods her head
I lower myself down onto the edge of the bed. “There’s a darkness inside of me, Raven. It’s like, in the moment, I can’t control it. Like it takes over and once whatever needs to be done is done, the darkness fades like it was never even there. Does that make sense?”
“I think so. How long has this been happening?
“Since Devon. Maybe even before, I don’t know.”
She rocks on the stool. “Have you told my brother? Does he know?
“He is aware. But he also never had a problem with it. He enjoyed it. Until now.
“Dane does enjoy the darker side of life. I think that’s why he gets on so well with Damien.” I see her smile and I am truly happy for her, but Dane and Damien being friends was not the issue right now.
‘Raven, I’m scared. What if they are right? What if I am too far gone? What if it’s too late?” I glance down at my bump. “What about them? “That’s a lot of questions to answer.” She was deflecting.
“What else has Damien told you?”
Her shoulders drop as she frowns. “According to Damien, if you, you know….become Rogue, they won’t survive.
“The twins will die?” I scoff
She nods her head at me
I could feet my eyes filling with tears. “So then, I just don’t turn.” It sounded pretty simple. “And no more killing.” That’s what Dane had said: Content Selongs to –
Raven lowers her dark eyes.
“It’s not that simple is it?”
“Not from what I understand.
Why couldn’t I just go back to the days, where the hardest part of my day was learning to read and write!
“ could still turn?” I never wanted to be a monster, but here I was, slowly turning into one.
Her heavy sigh seems to echo in the room as she nods her head
“But the good news is, we have Damien who transitioned back and Mallory who helped him. She can help you too. If you let her.” “Mallory is bad news.”
“Does it matter if she is the one who can help you and the twins.” Raven offers. “At least then, you will be able to keep a closer eye on her.”
Nyx is quiet but angry. She doesn’t. want tab be shut away. She wants.to be free-and I was fighting every inch of my being to keep her from» ‘
“Do you trust Mallory?” I ask Raven.
‘I believe her when she says she regrets harting you. But if you don’t want tg’be alone with her, I can be with yeu. And maybe that way; I can stop-you from killing her.” She gives me=a small smile. t&” –
It wasn’t hard to find Mallory. Dane had set her up in one of the guest bedrooms, but she did seem surprised to see me at her door. “Is…is everything okay?”
I grit my teeth, annoyance already deeply embedded within me. “I need your help.
Her lips part a little as she tucks a strand of her dirty blonde hair behind her ear. Taking a step back, she asks us both to come in. “How can I help?” She asks, looking between the both of us.
“You helped Damien, right?” Raven mutters