Neah

He grips my elbow, pulling me into the house. His crimson eyes search mine, trying to figure out if I was definitely ready to do this. I didn’t even know if I was ready.

But something had to be done. It was getting too much. Everything was too much and now kids were being turned.

“Beta Eric needs to… He needs to warn Jess.” I mumble as Alpha Dane steers me into the office. “If it works, she will be able to hear me too. It will freak her out.” I am twenty two and it still weirds me out when I hear Alpha Dane’s voice in my head. Not to mention Nyx.

“I’ve told him. He is having the conversation with her right now.”

I still didn’t know what this would achieve. If anything, it seemed like it would piss them off more.

He guides me to the chair, telling me to sit down. I could see it in his eyes now. He knew there was every chance that this wouldn’t work.

‘Accept the role.’ Nyx murmurs.

‘Will it work?’

‘We will find out once you accept it.’

‘Fine, I accept it!’ I wanted it over and done with. I wanted to see their heads on spikes. I wanted….. I trail off realizing how dark my thoughts go.

‘You will have to do better than that.’ Nyx laughs.

I look up to Alpha Dane. He is watching me. He said he could always tell when I was having a conversation with Nyx.

“You’ve got this. And I am right here.” He smiles at me.

“I accept.” I mutter out loud.

Alpha Dane shakes his head at me. I knew what he was saying, I had to put it all together.

“I, Neah Kitson, accept the role of…” I trail off again, could I really do this?

‘It’s in our blood.’ Nyx murmurs.

I slump back in the chair. Devon had kept pushing for me to take my Alpha role back. To take control and lead Moonshine. He had really pushed for it too. Insisting that it is what they all needed. But they all believed a woman shouldn’t be in charge.

“Keep going.” Alpha Dane insists. “You can do this.”

“It’s a trick.” I mutter.

“Neah, you are panicking.” Alpha Dane speaks with a calm voice.

“It was Devon that told you who I am. He pleaded with me to lead the Lycans. To take control. He said they needed me. But he worked for Trey.”

I had been so stupid. I hadn’t seen it.

“You think this is what he wants you to do?”

I swallow the lump forming in my throat. “They never wanted me to lead. This is a trap. This is why Devon was sent here.” I blink back the tears. I was so stupid.

‘Fuck!’ Nyx snaps. ‘That’s what they have wanted us to do all along.’ She was annoyed to have not figured it out. Her pacing in my mind was not helping at all. She hadn’t been there until the very end. She hadn’t heard all of our chats.

“His plan is better than we thought.” Alpha Dane mutters. He loops the desk and me, scratching through the stubble on his chin. He pauses and leans on the table with his knuckles. “What if you accept it anyway?”

“I don’t… I don’t follow.”

“As an Alpha, I can block out my pack’s voices. Choosing who I listen to, choosing who I link. The plan was for you to link all of them. What if you start singling them out? One at a time. Getting inside their heads to learn the information we need?”

“And what if it doesn’t work?”

‘He’s right.’ Nyx mutters. ‘I can help with the block.’

Alpha Dane stares at me, waiting for my response.

I sigh, because neither of them are going to like my answer. “We find another way.”

“Neah…” Alpha Dane starts.

“I never wanted it, Alpha Dane. Maybe if I was raised differently, yes. But this…..I…I don’t want to be a leader to them. I don’t want them to be able to use it as a way to drag me back. And I definitely don’t want them to put their fucking seed in me!” I was practically yelling by the time I was done. Something that I don’t do.

“N….”

“Don’t!” I snap, storming from the office. I was furious and Nyx thankfully keeps her mouth shut.

Trudging over to the hospital, I hoped Raven would be around. I just needed someone else to talk to or maybe it was silence that I needed.

“Hey.” She mutters without even looking up. “Dane said you might be heading this way. What’s he done? He was very cryptic in the link.”

“He wants me to accept my role.”

“As Luna?”

I hadn’t even thought about that. “No, Alpha.”

Her dark eyes snap up, locking with mine.

She presses her lips together and moves around the station she is leaning on. “There must be a reason.”

I catch her up on the conversation with Alpha Dane and tell her about the girl.

“I had heard about the girl. Eric is bringing her by later. Thinks it will be good for me to do a check up on her.”