Chapter 57
I reluctantly turned around and went to where Jayden sat in the living room. I stood for a while before he motioned for me to sit on the single settee chair in the room.
I knew what he was going to talk about but I still hoped that he wouldn’t say it. Oh goddess, I’m not ready. Adrian and Rose soon joined us and Adrian sat closer to me giving me some sort of comfort. He held my hand and I took a deep breath befire Jayden began to talk.
“I’m sure it must have been shocking to find out that you’re a special wolf yesterday“, he began. Not really, I’ve always know I was different, I just didn’t know it was the type of different that will out the fate of the pack wolves into my hands.
I nodded my head so I wouldn’t seem rude and he continued. “It’s no news that you’d be leading our kind into a war that only you and Adrian can conquer“, he stated the obvious. Adrian must have noticed how stiff I sat because he squeezed my hands again.
“We’ve decided that it’s time to step up to the role of the Luna that rightfully belongs to you“, he said before resting his back. on the chair and I was dumbfounded.
It took me about 2 minutes to process what he said and I screamed. “Why? Why am I taking up the role of the Luna now? Why should I be a Luna to a man that recently just acknowledged me? Why?” I screamed out and they all looked
taken aback. Adrian looked hurt but that wasn’t what was important.
Were they expecting me to be cool with whatever decision they made without consulting me first? Like hell, I’d comply.
Rose was the one who spoke next. “Lola, child. This is for the sake of the pack“, she paused to gauge my response. She continued when I kept my face neutral, “the pack needs their new Luna. Adrian is supposed to be the new Alpha King already, he needed his Luna to be able to do so and now that it’s obvious you’re both getting along, there’s no reason to waste anymore time“, she finished and I looked at her like. she’d grown two heads.
What happened to the Rose that would always support me and my decisions?
“He needed his Luna to become the Alpha King and yet he was ready to choose Fay over me when I got here. He needed his Luna yet, no one dared to make him see that he was making a mistake by treating me the way he did?” I asked in a shaky voice.
I removed my hand from Adrian’s clasp and ran up to my room, making sure I locked the door. I began to pace the room while taking deep breaths. I didn’t know what emotions I was feeling inside me. It was a mixture of rage, fear and sadness.
“Lola. Can you at least consider stepping up to the role?” Jasmine asked in my head. “Consider stepping up to the role? Jasmine, you suffered from this more. You were constantly weak and I almost lost you“, I replied to her.
“But that was in Moonlit pack. We’re with our true mate now
and you can agree with me that this pack has made you feel welcomed in the span of one month where Moonlit pack made you feel like an outcast for eight years“, she spoke gently and i couldn’t help but agree with her.
Truth is, I was scared of failing. I was scared of letting everyone down. If I had been told to do something like this in Moonlit pack, I wouldn’t have thought twice before I agreed. I wouldn’t feel a thing if they all died but the case of Crescent moon pack was different..
They accepted me and treated me like their own, I didn’t want to get their hopes up and fail eventually, I’d never forgive myself. I felt bad for lashing out at Rose and Jayden when they have been nothing but nice to me.
I did not know when tears started streaming down my cheeks. I had to apologize to them for being a spoiled brat. I made up my mind to go and apologize to them and when I opened the door, I was met with a sad looking Adrian.
I opened my mouth to speak but he pulled me into his chest and hugged me tight. We didn’t say a word, we just stood like that for a while.
I eventually broke up our embrace and looked up at him. “Can we talk?” He asked and when I took time to answer, he added “please“. I nodded my head and led him into my room.
He kept looking at me for a while, making me squirm under his gaze. “Am I really the reason you’re refusing to take on your role as the Luna?” He suddenly spoke.
When I was taking a while to answer him, he pulled me closer to his chest and asked his question again. I shook my head and tried to bury myself into his skin. He felt like home.
“Why then? Because if you’re trying to hurt my feelings, I’d suggest that you stop. I fucked up initially and i don’t care how long it takes, I’m going to……….“, I shut him up with a k*ss surprising both of us.
“Look who decided to be bold and take charge“, Jasmine teased in my head but I ignored her. I pulled away from the k*ss once I was sure he was calm.
“It’s not your fault, Adrian, I’m just scared of falling and letting everyone down“, I whispered softly. “What if the Moon.
goddess is wrong and I’m unable to save us all? What if the rogues win, what will become of this pack then? It’s a huge responsibility and I’m scared to take it on lest I let the pack down“, I admitted in shame.
“Baby, it’s nothing to be ashamed about. To be honest, I’m scared too. I’m scared I’m going to fuck up our relationship again. I’m scared I’m not going to make a good King. I’m scared about the oncoming war because you’ll be in the center of it but you know what?“, He asked and i looked up at him. “What?”
“I have you, Lola. Apart from the fact that you’re the moon wolf, I have my moon ordained mate with me and I know we’re going to get through this together“, with that he dropped a k*ss on my forehead and I went back to snuggling into his arms.
He’s right. I have my mate with me, I shouldn’t be scared of anything.