Chapter 43
I think I just created a beast.
I watched Lola as she walked away from me and slammed the door with force, making me flinch a bit. I felt a sense of pride and also felt like I had been kicked in the heart.
That could only mean one thing; she wasn’t going to take my bullshit anymore. Sure, it did not sit well with me that she talked to me in that manner, I was an Alpha wolf after all, but it also made me feel proud that my mate was slowly standing up for herself.
Scratch that. It meant my mate would not be taking any bullshit from anyone because she has guts now.
Daxon was basically wagging his tail and whimpering in my head when she was shouting at us. I had to admit that it turned me on a bit. The Alpha mate in me wanted to slam her against the wall and show her that she was mine and going nowhere. While the part of me that offended her was so ashamed, I could barely look her in the eyes.
“Congratulations, you succeeded in making her hate us. I hope you’re f**king happy now“, Daxon growled in my head. and I just rubbed my palm all over my face. I did not have a comeback for him. Nothing I would say would justify the reason I did not show up at the hospital for 4 days.
She was not responding to anything for four days but I
couldn’t go there because I might go berserk and make blood flow in the hospital so I stayed back at home, getting updates from Nathan.
The first day was worse. I had been sitting in my bedroom after the whole bowling alley incident when Nathan’s voice came into my head.
“Lola just collapsed at the clinic, man“, his panicked voice came through the mindlink and I went rigid. Daxon
immediately started whimpering in my head at the news that his mate had collapsed.
“What“, that was the only word I could get out. She looked perfectly fine before she left with Lyla. “I’m on my way back to get you, so we can go to the clinic together“, he said but I wasn’t even listening to him.
My whole thoughts were on how I had been the cause of her pain and suffering since she came into the pack when I should have been her protective shield. If I had not allowed my anger to overtake me at the sight of her hugging that pup. She might not have collapsed. I don’t deserve to see her.
“What?” Daxon boomed in my head but I paid him no heed. “Head straight to the clinic, Nathan. I won’t be going to see her, I don’t deserve to“, I said into the midlink. “What? You can’t decide that for her. If you’re ever going to win her back, now is the time to do that, stupid“, Nathan shouted into the mindlink but my mind was already made.
“I wasn’t asking for your opinion on this matter, Nathan. I’d suggest you keep them to yourself until I say otherwise“, I said and the midlink went silent.
Maybe I was too harsh but I also wanted to be left alone with
my thoughts. I couldn’t imagine seeing her take her last breath when I was with her.
“You’re such a f**king coward, Adrian“, Daxon said angrily in my head but I couldn’t care less about what anyone said in that moment. Yes, I was a coward but I’d rather not watch her
die.
Mom came home that night and lashed out at me but I was hellbent on not going anywhere. There wasn’t anyone who could tell me a particular reason she was hospitalized and I could barely feel the connection to her soul inside me.
“I raised you better, Adrian. You’d regret your decision whether she lives or dies“, she said as she left my room that night. Daxon refused to talk to me, my parents refused to talk to me, Nathan would only give me updates when I forced it out of him. I was alone, completely alone and I was slowly losing my mind.
I thought about rejecting her but my heart felt like it was going to burst out of my chest anytime I thought about it. It wasn’t until yesterday that she came back to life that Nathan told me the real reason she collapsed and what Lyla had told
him.
She apparently collapsed after one of the girls from the new group she went out with started blaming her that she was the reason her brother was in the hospital. The doctor stabilized her but the greater shock came when she was to be changed out of her gown.
Nathan said Lyla had come to him crying about how no one deserves what she went through. He mentioned seeing her scars when she arrived in the pack but she thought they were
marks from where she was running and did not bother with it after they clothed her.
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I shook uncontrollably and the only thing that stopped me from going to the hospital to take her into my arms was t shame from not showing up initially.
I was so nervous when I heard that she was getting discharged that I couldn’t get any sleep. How would I explain why I was absent to her? Would she be willing to work things. out with me? Do I deserve her?
I was preparing what I was going to say to her when I heard the door to the house open and close. As the footsteps made their way up the stairs, her scents invaded my nostrils and I wanted to hit myself for being such a fool.
She stopped in her tracks for a while when she saw me before. she made her way towards her room like I did not exist. I wouldn’t lie and say it didn’t hurt because it did.
I was so shocked when she shouted at me. I had created a
beast.